One Thing

All it takes is for one thing to ruin your day. Have you ever had a day where you think everything’s going okay but one thing has to ruin it all? Well today was that day.

It was a really icy-cold morning today, and I found this really refreshing. I arrived at sixth form at 8:15, fully aware that I didn’t have any lessons until 12:00, which was an amazing feeling. I didn’t waste these hours sitting around, I managed to get a lot of important work done which was a good start to the day in all honesty.

Unfortunately, in between 8:15 and 12:00, there was the ‘one’ that I am so desperate to avoid contact with as I am trying to forget who this person is. But it was the only thing on my mind, and the person was in the corner of my eye throughout these hours. It was so difficult to sit there and do work with this person in proximity. But you’re probably thinking why didn’t I move. Well I was helping my other friend with work and I was feeling cold, so sitting near the radiator was pretty much my priority.

Although the thought of this person was once again ripping me up inside my mind, I was relatively okay and satisfied with how the day was going. I distracted myself by talking and laughing with friends, as well as listening to Wu-Tang Clan (my distraction music) in my headphones.

But it wasn’t until the last lesson of the day where I was next to this person in class, and I continued to ignore and barely communicate with her. The lesson went great, and I glanced up at the clock, where there was only ten minutes left until the end of the school day. In my mind I was ten minutes away from a good start to the week…

But it was these last ten minutes that annoyed me the most and has ruined my day. The person in true ‘day ruining style’, couldn’t help herself with something that hurts me every time I hear something about it. Bang. Right there it was over. Literally five minutes were left and my mood quickly turned sour. The bell rang and I quickly packed up my things and just hastily left the classroom without saying a word to my friends who became quickly concerned.

But seriously I am so embarrassed and upset that such little things bother me. Like I get banter from my friends which I can easily take, and that can be brutal at times, but it doesn’t phase me. But when I hear something I don’t want to hear, it single handedly manages to wriggle its way through my mind and makes me feel so bad. Literally all it takes is one thing. I am so weak. I am so ashamed of what I have become. Here’s hoping for a better tomorrow.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight. All the best.

#AET

Twitter – @ExplorerTrapped

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